Hello 2011.

I'm not going to do a years recap, I've only been blogging on here since April/May (I think). But I will tell y'all some of my resolutions.

 Let's try to SURVIVE 2011, a month of hubby training. A deployment, staying in ALASKA with two toddlers, two cats and a puppy-COMPLETELY out of my comfort zone.

Potty train my baby girl.

Get super crafty.

Hit the gym-hardcore.

Get healthy and in shape.

Explore Alaska.

Take the kids to Anchorage-water park, MALL, zoo, etc etc.

Keep the house clean and organized (the majority of the time anyway)

MAKE an outfit.

Redecorate my house-thrifty like. (which really means DON'T SPEND A FORTUNE)

Save money.

Write letters, snail mail style.

Find myself. Reconnect with AMBER. (She seems to get lost sometimes in mommyhood and wifelife)

Take time for myself to run errands, shop, sit and sip coffee-ALONE.

Put my babies in daycare without feeling guilty. (They need the interaction & mommy needs the quiet time)

Meet new people.

Get the tattoos I've been aching to get without worrying about being judged for being one of THOSE people.

Reconnect with old friends.

Find a good balance between mommy and wife and Amber.

Trust people more. Let people in and my guard down.

Wear those clothes that I LOVE but usually avoid for fear of being stared at all retarded like. (I am actually getting better at this one).

Spoil my kids with love and toys and food and happiness.

Get my baby girl off the baba. (Yup....she's 2 and still on a bottle. Keep your bashing to yourself!)

Write hubby daily.

Be happy.

Survive.

Hello 2011, I'm Amber and I am ready for you. Hit me with your best shot.


The underlined ones=accomplished.

How this momma destresses....

If you have some of these.....

 and one of these....

And a dog that does this...

Notice the taped together part.  That was from #damndog night a few nights ago. *sigh*

 You probably have quite a bit of stress in your life. So this momma is gonna give you some destressing advice.... Ready?!

First, you need good friends like I have. My friend, Jenn over at A Cup of Jenn  got me this headband among other stuff for my birthday.... --You need a headband to keep the hair out of your face for what comes next...

My other friend, Michelle brought me some of these masks the other day. I chose the green one.

Also...where it says AVOID eyes--it means business. I got it too close to my eye and my poor eyeball was BURNING!! haha. silly me for not taking them seriously.

 So then while you wait.... eat some of this. Mmm Mmm good! Thanks hubby for bringing some home.

And pop a few of these for the massive cramps you have cuz you're a week late and stressed and freaking out. Haha

**WARNING--May scare children with your peeling skin**

END!

if you wanna be my bff...

I saw this post and this one over on Little Miss Momma's blog and thought it sounded fun, so I'm gonna do up my BFF list and share with y'all. 

But first, let me just say.... HOW STINKIN' CUTE IS SHE?!?!

Ok.... so if YOU wanna be MY BFF, there are some things you should know first.

I am a mom... first. My kids will always come first.

I mean, how can they not.... just look how stinkin' cute they are!!

I just love kissing their little boo boos and having that mom power that makes everything all better.

Anyway.... next: I am a COFFEEaholic. Like SERIOUSLY.

Hi. My name is Amber and I am an addict.

I eat my reese's cups FROZEN.  They are WAY better this way.

I am one of those parents that open snacks in the store to give to their kids.

I also often talk and make funny faces at other people's kids. (You'd be surprised by how many parents give me EVIL looks for that-wtf right?! I'm clearly not a creep. I have two kids with me and i'm making goofy faces at my kids too... people today.  *tsk tsk*)

I HATE cleaning. Like seriously.... it's never ending. I would so hire somebody if I could.

I have tattoos and piercings and want TONS more.

Not to THIS extent....

(cuz that's just plain CREEPY)But something more like this.....

(her name is megan massacre. --Click for more pics)

I am addicted to oversized sunglasses.

I love pretty clothes and accessories but usually just lounge in jammies or jeans and my fav tshirts.

I like simplicity. Our house is decorated but it's nothing super fancy and we like it that way.

I come from the south-no matter where I live, I'll have an accent and I'll always rock that southern girl charm.

I'm a wanna be crafter--currently without the time to attempt hardcore things, but I did make this little tote bag for my baby girl.... not too horrible but definitely has it's flaws. She likes it, that's all that matters.

I'd much rather do dinner and a movie instead of bars and parties.

I absolutely hate folding and putting away laundry.

I kind of hate crayons.... ok well, I hate the wall art that my kids think is cute.

Magic erasers--God's gift to moms!!

days of truth, lunch dates and stupid drivers.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?EVERYTHING!  No joke, I am a stay at home mom of two amazing children. I have a great hubby who works hard so I don't have to. (I mean so I don't have to have a paying job... mommyhood is no joke and NOT easy by any means). We live in Alaska, how many people get to even VISIT Alaska?!?! Every couple of years we travel to a new place. I'm always meeting new people and seeing new places. I live an amazing life, I really do.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?If I was pregnant... I'd be pretty darn excited really... aside from the upcoming deployment, but hubby's missed one birth and a year of their lives already, so as sad as it is to say, not a big deal if he misses another. :/
But yea... kids are amazing and I know people that can't have kids and it breaks my heart. Truly breaks my heart, so if I found out I was expecting baby #3, I would feel pretty blessed.

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.I hope to become healthier. And more confident in my skin. More confident in my everything. And also, maybe work on that wall I keep up that I talked about HERE.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.Dear self, I love how creative you can be. I love your mommy skills and your love for your family. I love your patience and you're ability to plaster on the happy face when times get tough. I love how supportive you are of everyone in your life and I love that you know your faults and try to work on them. Keep your head up and you'll go far.
Love, Amber.



YAY NO MORE 30 DAYS OF TRUTH!!I hope you guys enjoyed them as much as I was scared of them. did. Haha.


Now let me throw in a bit of a post.
I just want to say, PEOPLE CAN NOT DRIVE!! Seriously, the other night I had to run to walmart for some headband making materials for this girl I know and as I was pulling out... right where it says RIGHT TURN ONLY and has the sign that says

NO LEFT TURNS (if you turn left, you're totally driving the WRONG way).... well, this truck in front of me freakin pulls out all dumblike turning LEFT then JUMPS the curb thing covered in ice and snow to get on the right road. I just sat there for a minute watching dumbfounded that ANYONE could try something SO stupid... especially when we are currently driving on an ice covered road!! DUMB DUMB DUMB!! Seriously, what is wrong with people?!?!
Speaking of walmart though, I spent 15 minutes in the checkout line!! It was INSANE!!  I needed to go last night to get milk, I pulled in and begged hubby just to get it on his way home because it was PACKED and I did not want to spend forever in line just for milk!

Anyway.... yesterday was my first monthly lunch date with my friend, Hannah. MUCH NEEDED! MUCH ENJOYED!! Hannah is pregnant with baby number 3, I have two toddlers.... we agreed that we both just needed a monthly outing without husbands, without kids...and what better way to try different places around town?! So yesterday we went to the Alaskan Roasting Company.  We spent FIVE hours just sitting there talking about everything and nothing!! We only left because we realized they were closing for a Christmas party. We slowly became surrounded by people with presents and food and all that. HAHA. But I HIGHLY recommend you try that place out. It was affordable, delicious and a very pleasant atmosphere.

GUYS!!! Christmas is 4 days away!! EEEEP!!! Are you ready?! Are you done shopping?! Are you excited or just ready for it to be over with?!


I hope you all have yourselves some fantastic holidays!



4 more for you...

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Probably waited a bit longer to have kids. I love my bittles but hubby & I had them so soon while we were young and struggling. It would have been nice to get a bit more US time in before kids came along, but I always have time when they are grown so it's ok.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)Can I just pass on this one?! Lol. I don't really want to make a playlist to anyone. It's hard to choose songs, there are too many great ones and I honestly have NO idea who I'd make it for.

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Umm, THANKFULLY to raise my babies and hopefully to grow old with my hubby.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

No. Suicide is pretty selfish really. You cut your life short because you've hit a rough patch?! Come on now, look how much you've just hurt everyone that knows and cares about you!! SELFISH! Plus, I'm pretty optimistic, so when I go through rough patches, I know there has to be brighter times coming soon.



Also, don't forget to check out my friend, Mel's awesome little giveaway. 



religion, drugs, car accidents and past regrets.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Politics pretty much bore me. (I feel like I'm going to get stones thrown at me for saying that)
Religion.... I believe in God, but not so much church. I spent a good chunk of my life as a Pentecostal and now I believe it's more about your own personal walk with God than church.  (again, stones....*ducks*)

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
A time and a place for everything?!

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Umm, feel extremely HORRIBLE and rush to the hospital praying frantically that she's fine!

 

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

If you live in the past, you have no future.



More days of truth and a friend's giveaway.

First things first... my friend, Melissa is doing a super cute giveaway over on her page, Passionately living in Alaska  Go check it out!

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without itUmmm, probably honesty my family.... ever since I can remember, my momma drilled into our heads that FAMILY was everything. Friends would come and go, boys would come and go, but no matter, family would back you up and support you! And she's was completely right.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.Hmmm... cable.  Haha, no joke I am about to cancel our cable.... we hardly watch it. We've done without it before and it wasn't a big deal at all.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something
yea.... no idea. I am having a serious brain dead moment today (if you can't tell from day 16)

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

I am not against it at all.  Love is love.

Best grilled cheese EVER.

So, it's your basic grilled cheese...... Only I added TWO slices of cheese, turkey and a tomato. And after I buttered the bread, I sprinkled some "italian seasoning" on mine.... If you have a handy dandy little spinning spice rack like I do, you probably have that same seasoning   :)
Grill, and serve. 
Mmmm.

Hi guys! I thought I'd get in here and give you an actual post instead of just the 30 days of truth.  How am I doing on those?!
All is well in our world. It's cold. Right now my handy dandy phone app says it is NEGATIVE 31 here at Ft Wainwright.  That does not excite me because I have plans this afternoon.  OH NO!! BUNDLE BUNDLE BUNDLE UP!!!  Eeeks. 
In other news, my kiddos are still as insane as ever. My hubby is still him... it's been a slow week...
Saturday we attended a birthday party and the troop's Christmas party. Fun times were had. Good food was eaten. And good people were talked with.  YAY!
This morning, I uploaded pics from my camera.... here are a few of them.  :)

This is from Thanksgiving.

How cute are they?!?! Haha!!

My litte goobs!

TROOP CHRISTMAS PARTY!!
Complete with santa and everything. Santa even brought all the kids gifts (IF mommy and daddy brought the gift to santa. haha)
Look at my little man's face!!! He was so so so so excited!!! When they announced that Santa was on his way, he kept telling people to shhh so he could hear the jingle bells coming!! Haha

 My little princess was more excited about cupcakes then Santa or the present mom & dad Santa brought!

That sums up my weekend.  Hope you all had fantastic weekends as well.  :)

Oh... I was spotlighted.... go check it out.  A cup of Jenn

Day 13 & 14.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Umm, probably just music in general... Music soothes the soul.
Manson is a fav when I am in a "screw the world" kind of mood.
Country music gets me homesick and puts a smile on my face.
((And I have a tiny miley cyrus addiction))-ask my cousin, Nick. (i'm sorry i made you listen to her a lot, nick)
Old songs take me down memory lane...
Love songs usually make me reminise.
Also: a tiny shoutout to my dear friend, Ken.  Angel's diversion was AMAZING and I'm sure any band this man is a part of will be JUST as amazing!!


Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)


Dear biodad. You suck. You chose drugs over your family.... I haven't seen you since I was 7.  And you waited til I was 21 to ask your mom to ask me if I'd email you. You left us. You missed out. Your kids gew up to be amazing. No thanks to you.  So yea... four kids, two grandkids, a family.... you missed out on it. I hope you're drugs were worth it.

Day 11. Day 12.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Umm, probably my hair?! And as odd as I think it is because I have serious lack of self esteem  when it comes to my teeth--my smile. 
Other than physically, probably just my personality in general?! I don't know... obviously I don't get many compliments. Haha. Or if I do, I don't pay too much attention...
Oh!!.... MY STYLE! ha. I rock some random ass outfits and apparently, I rock them WELL!  :)

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

Hmmm....I'm not sure.... haha. That makes me sound kind of full of myself, but geez... I don't really pay attention to what people DON'T say about me.

Spit em out guys.... shoot me those compliments or noncompliments....

1/3 of the way there...

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

As a military wife, drifting tends to happen. In my days, I've made a handful of amazing friends that I was sad to see go, but it's part of life I guess... maybe my life anyway. We still try to keep in touch... most of them, I still talk to on a daily basis.  But if I am supposed to name names, probably my Jenny G. She's been my very best friend since 7th grade, she's my sister and I know that no matter the distance, the time, the anything that she will be there for me in any way she can. And I love her and miss her more than I can even begin to express.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Ha!! Am I really supposed to answer this?! If they're still in my life, they can probably read this and I would MUCH rather avoid that drama.   Right at this moment-my husband.  GRRRR.  Ha, I kid. I kid.
But seriously, the best thing I can say about this-if you have someone in your life that you honestly don't want there... cut the ties. Whether you do it slowly or just BAM! at once.... cut the ties. I've done it.  It's part of life, I suppose.  About a year ago, I had a person like this and REALLY wish I would have just snipped it in the butt, but I didn't and it just kept getting worse and worse until it turned into a big huge ridiculous battle and ended on HORRIBLE terms.
So, point being... we all have someone like this. It happens. It's part of life. How you handle it is really what matters.

Day 8's a tough one...

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Well, it's not really a tough one for me to answer... just a tough one for me to tell all of you about.
I think I'm going to just sum it up as a whole.  Judgemental people. (I will never name names, so most of you can assume who I talk about or just wonder endlessly)


All my life I have had my far share of judgemental people.  From the "popular kids" to my own family members.... one way or another, I've been judged. I dropped out of college, I ran away to North Carolina, I moved in with my boyfriend, moved to Nashville with my BFF (see, I said it again!!), moved to Kentucky to be with hubby. Got pregnant premarriage. I have tattoos. I have piercings. I have a foul mouth. And I don't go to church.  Coming from where I do, I'm destined for hell.  I'm from a tiny little town in the middle of Tennessee that none of you have probably even heard of.  Small towns have nothing better to do than to gossip.
Good example: last deployment, I was preggo with my princess drama queen and I had an almost one year old...and i was wearing no ring. (Hey-2 pregnancies that close together, you try to squeeze your fat ass finger into a wedding ring).  Anytime I would even run to the grocery store, I'd get evil looks and then sad looks and the "oh how sad another single mom...whats this world coming too" looks.  NEWSFLASH PEOPLE: My husband HUSBAND AND FATHER OF BOTH BABIES was DEPLOYED.  Did anyone stop to talk to me or anything?! Nope. Everyone just assumed I was another single, young mom.
Even out of the small town life, people just have a way of judging others.  Some of my own flesh and blood looked down upon me for being with my husband because he was covered in tattoos and he went through a dumb teenage phase, so he was known as a "bad kid" back in his town....well now I have tattoos and piercings too..... and we have two gorgeous kids, a home, a family, a life. We aren't starving or living in the streets begging for drugs..... we live a good life, but we have tattoos and piercings so we're automatically evil Satan worshipers.   I will NEVER understand people.
Isn't God the only one that's supposed to judge?!  I've been judged a lot in my day, so I'm pretty sure I am NOT the only one.... so I am pretty sure there are a lot of people doing what only God is supposed to do...

So now I will leave you with what is quite possibly my favorite quote EVER...

"Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."-Bob Marley



Haha, I skipped day 5.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

I hope to have a wedding. Hubby and I did a courthouse wedding. (Long story)

I hope to travel and sight see.

I hope to eventually have visited all 50 states.

I hope to raise my babies up right. 

I hope to be half as good of a mother as mine was to me.

I hope to finish this 30 days of truth. (I'm beginning to wonder what I've gotten myself into. haha)

I hope to be who I want to be, without fear of what others think, etc etc...

I hope to .... sleep.   Haha. It is almost 1 o'clock in the morning.

Day 6 & 7 of these truths. (And a tiny blog at the end)

I wonder if my husband reads these.... I know he sees the tweets about them being posted... he knows I blog... I know he sees it on my facebook posts... but I really don't think he reads these.... His loss. Maybe if he did, he'd see that I might just possibly like him.  ;)

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

I hope I never have to bury my husband at a young age.... from an unnatural death.... I mean, you know of course I'd wish immortality on him, but being realistic, I just don't want to bury him young. (Deployments TERRIFY me) I never want to experience single motherhood. I too often play mom & dad thanks to Uncle Sam, but I mean seriously.... Part of me will die with my husband. The other part will be a zombie. I don't want my kids to see a zombie mom, I don't want my babies to grow up without knowing what a great person their daddy is. I just want them to experience a lifetime of daddy's love and not just a few years of it that they'll be too young to barely remember.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

My husband of course. He rescued me from a life going nowhere. He gave me two amazing children that I would give my life for.  Together we have built a life, family, a home.  When I feel like my world is falling apart, he opens his mouth and says something incredibly off the wall and usually snaps me back to reality.  Now don't get me wrong, we're FAR from perfect... we've definitely had our issues, but after all these years, he's still the only one I want to be laying next to me at night.



Non 30 days of truth.

Ugh. I HATE nail polish.  OK, I don't but I do when my son gets ahold of a bottle to "paint" with.  He came downstairs the other night COVERED in hot pink polish. It's on his bed, a little on the wall, head to toe on him, on some toys and a bit on my laptop. This little pink smudge is driving me nuts. I need to get some polish remover and get to work on this disaster. 

GUYS!!!!!  Do you realize how close Christmas is?!?! We have literally only bought one present each so far.  *sigh* we need to get on the ball.... I am so so excited for Christmas. I'm anxious to watch my babies open gifts that I know they will just LOVE!! I am excited to TRY to surprise hubby with a few things. I am excited to shop for everyone and just hope they love it as much as I think they will. And I am excited to bake. Yup, I said bake.  When I was younger, my mother would bake treats and goodies for our neighbors, one of my favorite Christmas memories (that of course I hated at the time) was going door to door delivering these things.  I'm going to make my kids hate it too until they are older and love it for themselves.  Haha.   I'm excited to be carrying on this little tradition.  I did it last year, but only knew like one person and really did not like our neighbors so they missed out on the goodies (by goodies, I mean overly cooked cookies and fudge that didn't sit right. Haha. maybe they were lucky)  But this year, I have a few more people in mind and I am pretty much off the wall excited. Plus, my son likes to stir and pour so he will be pretty excited too!!
   Do you have Christmas traditions? If so... do tell.

18 days til Christmas.   :)

Day 3 & 4 are all about forgiveness.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.


This is pretty difficult without giving you guys too much of my personal life... and some of my personal life needs to stay just that.
I forgive myself. Past mistakes. After all, I'm only human and humans make mistakes. They just do. If we didn't, we'd be emotionless robots and what kind of world would that be?!

((Since this is a bit short, I'll add day 4 as well)



Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for

Hmmm. I'd like to say that I forgive him, but I don't think I can. And I think that is TOO personal for even some of my actual, in real life, close, personal friends. (remember day one where I mentioned I keep that wall up?!)  I remember when I told this story to my friend, Jenny G... I cried... a lot. We were outside the little store on campus where we would buy our little starbucks double shots that would keep us up all night. Jenny G, at the time had been my friend for 6 years. It's now been a good 12 years and I am still very blessed to call her my friend.  Getting off topic...


I'll add another one (or few)
Dear brother, you are a douchebag. But I forgive you. (haha)
Dear husband, you are a video gameaholic and I forgive you for those nights that you choose black ops over me.
Dear sisters, I forgive you for stealing my clothes everytime I come home to visit.
Dear old friends, I forgive you for picking your random boy toys over me. And I hope it all works out for you. (Just because I forgive you, doesn't mean I'll befriend you again)
Dear ex-boyfriend, I forgive you for completely shattering my heart. (Ok, that one still stings a bit).

Now I think I'll throw in some "i'll never forgives"

Dear Alaska, I will never forgive you for making me spend $5 a gallon on your dumb shaped milk jugs.
Dear neighbor from the apt my BFF (Yea, I just said that) and I shared back in Nashville, I will not forgive you for playing nice to my face and then stealing my dog. You are a crazy lady.
Dear Army, I will never forgive you for deployments.... They suck. End of story.
Dear dog, I don't forgive you for waking me up the other day at 4am cuz you got your dumb head stuck in a trashcan lid.  That was just DUMB on your part.

While I have your attention.... can I just say that I went back and reread these 30 days of truth.... I am a bit scared of some of the upcoming days. Yup.

Day 2.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself

I love .....
wow.... this is going to be harder than I thought.  How sad that I've starred off into space for a good 3 minutes trying to think...
I love my craftiness. Or is it, craftyness. Hmm, either way... I get it from my momma. ;)
I love that I usually am pretty able to stay calm during fights, arguements, drama, etc etc.
I love my heart. I love that I am a decent person.
I love my love for my family if that makes sense. A friend of mine once told me that she couldn't see me as anything but a mommy... I'm just made for it. I love that I am "made for it" haha.



Something not part of the 30 days of truth:
I've mentioned my friend, Sarah's blog before, but I'm going to do it again.... just go HERE and check out this recipe list. It's incredible and I just felt the need to give her some credit where it's due. Go Sarah! That must have been a headache and taken forever!!

30 days of truth.

I've seen a few people doing the 30 days of truth... I think I'm going to attempt it. I think it would/could be good for me, not only as a blogger but maybe as a person as well. Help me to share things that I don't like to usually discuss, etc etc.... (see what I did there?! Avoided the serious talk... mmmHmmmm!! I do that QUITE often)

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Here we go.... ready?!?! Me too! I'm kind of nervous!! Eeep!!

Day 1. Something you hate about yourself.
Aside from the body issues, I am REALLY paranoid when it comes to friendships. I am always thinking they have some hidden agenda. It's MOSTLY ridiculous, I know that. I have just encountered too many bad people in my days. I often forget that truly good people exist. So to defend myself, I keep a wall up. I try to not let people in, see the real me.... know too much about my life, etc etc.
I'm slowly getting past that, THANKFULLY but still. It's a slow process, but I think I am getting better.
So dear friends of mine, do not screw me over and force me to regress.  Please and thank you.

It's time for....

another round of things I love and things I hate.
and heeeeeeeeere we go.

I hate when I make a fresh glass of water and my cat comes and drinks out of it. 
I hate when I spill said water on my laptop.  *sigh* (yup, that just happened)
I hate when I pick up my phone and it is sticky.
I hate that my dog is scared of the dryer and barks at it.
I hate when my friends go through rough times. It's heartbreaking and like I'm going through it myself.
I hate when people outright lie. Especially to their way way way sweet mother.
I hate when it takes an hour for a waitress to come take our order.
I hate stepping in a wet spot and not knowing exactly who caused it or what it is. (Thankfully this last one was my son's water)

I love when I get to steal my hubby's pj pants. They are by far better than mine. (I'm wearing them now because he's on staff duty. Haha hubby if you're reading this, I'm wearing your pants!)
I love breakfast with  B.  I firmly believe it should be a weekly occurrence.
I love friend requests on facebook from old friends!
I love bullshitting and halfass gossiping with that old friend as our way of catching up.
I love subway's steak and cheese sandwiches.
I love baby feet. Especially when my baby has pretty painted toes that she begged me to paint and when I am way too busy to stop everything i am doing willingly agree, she lays in the floor and throws her feet up in the air.
I love when hubby comes home with a case of pepsi because I've been wanting ONE sip of soda.

Your turn.  
Tell me a few things you love and hate, or love to hate.